So You Call Me Baby

so you call me baby
wonderful you
man with the contagious laugh, warm smile
don’t stop calling me baby

so you call me baby
in the crisp fall breeze
hold me near
kiss me tenderly

so you call me baby
hold me, hold you
embrace me, embrace you
safety exists in your arms

so you call me baby
kiss my cheek
fingers intertwined
with mine

so you call me baby
under the velvet night
diamonds in the sky that shine bright
for us

so you call me baby
caress my skin
run your fingers down my neck
until they gently graze my breast

so you call me baby
kiss my neck, kiss my stomach, kiss my chest
electric fire burns my flesh
leaves an impression of your touch

so you call me baby
fingers dance across your skin
magnetically attracted
we drift closer and breathe each other in

so you call me baby
sunlight streaming in
golden rays brush your face
as we lay together

so you call me baby
by my side
flesh meets flesh
as you whisper softly

so you call me baby
heartbeat to heartbeat
roaming hands
tender touch

so you call me baby
from above
feel your breath on my face
hands slide down thighs to knees

so you call me baby
ocean blue eyes
open wide
full of confusion, kindness, wonder and life

so you call me baby
an angel from the heavens
smiling down on you

so you call me baby
crystal blue eyes
feisty with life
fiery passion to live

so you call me baby
strong of spirit
weak of heart
for you, cutie

so you call me baby
both of us
knowing the risk

so you call me baby
fragile heart
fragile being
fragile life

so you call me baby
heart swells
feelings soar
for the two of us

so you call me baby
bright spot
never ending
lighting the day and night

so you call me baby
act like you care
act distant
act like you don’t give a fuck

so you call me baby
as the storm breaks
hearts on the line, tears flowing, emotions chase the rising current
casualties taken

so you call me baby
but we are stronger then we imagine

so you call me baby
but you don’t call
no words
like a graveyard

so you call me baby
i know i’m on your mind
that song plays, you call
me, baby, always

so you call me baby
this messy life eats away, poisons, what is wonderful
but hope, happiness, beauty still blooms
with you, with me

so you call me baby
term of endearment
the pieces fit
attachment made

so you call me baby
through everything
you call me baby


Domino Effect

We’ve all heard of the Domino Effect – one action causes another which causes another and so on.

Everyday we make choices and those choices effect not only us, but others.

Lately I’ve been thinking about where I am in life, what I have and the people who surround me. More specifically I’ve been thinking about how things have really come together for me over the last several months. And I’ve been thinking of one person in particular.

This pass summer I had a small break between jobs. As the days went by the job searching became increasingly frustrating. So I decided to take the summer to travel while working on my writing and photography. There’s so many places I want to go and so much I want to see that I thought I would simply pack my bags and go. But I also tried to be realistic and gave myself a goal of obtaining a job by the fall.

August came and I began to feel the stress mounting. My travels had brought me to places I had never been before. I photographed things, places and events I’ve only dreamed of. I met people I never would’ve if I simply sat at home and some of these people I’m not proud to call friends. But there was still no job in sight. September was creeping closer and closer and I knew I was going to have to take a job in retail or at a grocery store. There’s nothing wrong with those jobs, but I didn’t want any of them. I knew I would be miserable every single day. Not to mention that I felt with each passing day I was getting further and further from my dreams. But I needed a job.

One day I was eating lunch with a friend and she told me about a local hotel that was looking for someone to help at the front desk. My interest was peeked. I liked people. I liked talking to them and working with them. After all, that’s one of the reasons I went to school for Journalism. Then I thought of my cousin who works in the hospitality industry. The stories she shares are always interesting and I thought it would be a lot better then the alternative choices I had in front of me. So I filled out an application for the hotel position. And was offered the job.

I don’t remember how long I was there before I saw him, before he captured my attention. I can, however, say that I remember the exact day I first saw him. But I thought he was much old then me, or married, or at least had a girlfriend.

Turns out I was wrong on all accounts.

And now I think back on how everything came together, how one simple decision effected where I am today.

If I never had lunch with my friend, I wouldn’t have found out about that job.

If I never found out about that job, I never wouldn’t have filled out the application.

If I never filled out the application, then, I never would’ve been called in for an interview and offered the job.

And if I never took this job then I never would’ve met him.

It was one of the best decision of my life.

And he’s one of the best things to ever happen in my life.

It might sound strange, but I feel as though I was meant to take this job because I was meant to meet him and he was meant to meet me.

I’m a big believer in the idea that everything happens for a reason. Even if the reason isn’t clear at the moment, there’s always a reason and it will eventually present itself.

And, now, it’s all clear to me.

Sunshine Blogger Award – I Accept Your Challenge

Thank you MidiMike for the nomination. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think my blog would be nominated for an award. I’m honored that you think enough of my blog to do so. And I encourage others to take a look at his blog:

The Rules:

1.) Thank the person that nominated you
2.) Answer the questions from the person that nominated you
3.) Nominate some other bloggers for this award
4.) Write the same amount of questions for the bloggers you have nominated
5.) Notify the bloggers you have nominated.

My Answers To The Questions:

1.) If you won the lottery or became very wealthy, what would you do differently than today?
If I had the money to travel, I would. I would take an extended leave from my job, pack my camera and a couple journals and travel the world. There are so many places I want to go, things I want to see and, of course, there are numerous people to meet along the way.

2.) If someone’s ideas clearly opposed your beliefs and needed help defending them, would you help them?
Yes. Everyone is entitled to their own beliefs. They shouldn’t be judged for them. I do not want to be judged for mine.

3.) If you could tell the entire world one thing, what would it be?
Be proud of who you are – always be yourself.

4.) Are you a ‘big picture’ person or a ‘detail’ person?
Is it fair to say both? I can stretch my mind to see the “big picture” and imagine far into the future, but at certain moments, depending on the situation, I’m a very detailed oriented person.

5.) Assuming you believed in reincarnation, other than human, what animal would you want to be?
A horse. They’re strong and majestic and beautiful. Emotion is carried in their eyes and they have the freedom to run with the wind blowing through their mane. I can only imagine that running with the free spirit of a horse would be the equivalent to the freedom I feel when I’m by the ocean.

6.) Other than a job or something you get paid to do, what do you think is your greatest talent?
My writing. Words are my thing and I can easily express myself when pen in put to paper (or when fingers are put to typing).

7.) What was the last picture you took?
The last picture I took was just a few days ago when I was in Lake Place. It had snowed that night and all morning. By the afternoon the ground and trees were covered with a fresh blanket of snow, the frozen lake in the foreground.

My Nominees For The Award:

Questions To My Nominees:

1.) If you could redo one thing in your life, would you?

2.) What is your dream job?

3.) Who/What has been the biggest inspiration in your life?

4.) If you saw a stranger in need of help, would you help them?

5.) Who is your favorite band/artist?

6.) If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go?

7.)What are your two greatest strengths/flaws?

I Care For You Today And Always

February 14th – Valentine’s Day.

It’s a day of chocolate, red roses (or flowers in general) and gifts.

It’s a day to show and tell those who are closest to us how much we care for them.

But why just one day?

If these people truly mean that much to us, then, why don’t we show and tell them how much we care everyday?

And this is the one point I’ve never understood about Valentine’s Day.

So to the special guy in my life – yes, I will show and tell you how much you mean to me on this day, but I will also show and tell you how much you mean to me every single day that you are part of my life.

I hope you all have a lovely Valentine’s Day with the ones who you care about the most.

Fighting Time

Do you ever feeling like you’re fighting time?

Do you ever feel like the not so great or stagnant moments drag on and the wonderful moments we patiently wait for happen so fast?

Time can be cruel, but that seems to be the game.

Recently, I went on a mini road trip with a guy I care about deeply. The week leading up to it felt as though it would last forever. Time ticked away one slow minute after another. My excitement rose day after day as I counted down, but as the trip drew closer, time seemed to slow even more then it already had in my world – almost as if things were moving in slow motion.

Over the years I’ve learned the excitement and anticipation can make things appear that way, but time continues to move at the same pace. There will always be 60 minutes in an hour and 24 hours in a day. Even though I already knew this fact, time seemed to be playing its game again.

And before I knew it I was waking up on the day of the trip and it felt like I hadn’t even waited at all.

The day flew by. One minute I was waking up. Then, the next minute, it’s 2am and we’re just going to bed. Even the next day, when I was moving slow, time ticked away faster then I could grab onto it.

I’m not ashamed to say I cried. Crying is a normal human emotion. And these were happy tears. I cried because I was so happy. I cried because I didn’t want to leave. I cried because I didn’t want it to end. I cried because there were so many beautify moments I wanted to relive. I cried because, in all my life, I’ve never felt such joy or felt so blessed to have someone like him in my life. And, while it may seem a bit selfish, I wanted more moments like the ones we shared while we were away together.

All my life I’ve felt like I’ve always been fighting time. I’m constantly stretching out every day, every hour, every minute, every second – reaching for more time. That’s why I decide a long time ago to live in the moment and enjoy ever second of every day.